Blake Giordano

I can’t believe that its been over seven months now that we’ve broken up. It’s hard for me to fathom the fact that it has been that long, and I still have the same feelings. Over half a year and I still love you like there is no tomorrow, I honestly believe that I love you unconditionally. It is the only explanation that I can think of, I can’t hate you, I get pissed off and then think I’m being stupid and I’m not just lying to say that you’re right and I’m wrong, because I honestly get mad at you for no reason. We don’t talk and I get pissed and then I realize I’m being stupid and I forgive you and hate myself. I think about you still to this day, every day. That’s over 200 days and I’m still in love with you. I can’t believe that I lost you, you really were the best thing that ever happened to me and I just didn’t give you what you needed. I was selfish and didn’t give you the happiness that you gave me and I am eternally sorry. What I would do to go back and fix everything, if there was something I could sacrifice to do it, I would in a heartbeat. I don’t know why, but today I thought about you more than most days. It actually made me kinda sad, I think mainly because I still miss you and I know you don’t. I still wonder if the message that I got on facebook was actually you or was it your mother in place of you. I want to know but I know you’re happy and it wouldn’t be fair to you if I just all of a sudden came back into your life right now. I really do want you to be happy I just wish I was the one that could make you happy again. You are the most amazing and beautiful woman that I have ever met. I’m sorry that we couldn’t  make our love work, I guess it was just the wrong time. Perhaps one day, either I will finally be over this and be happy with someone else, or we run into each other and can make it work. Either way, I hope you are happy. I love you Courtney, with all of my heart, more than anything else in this world, forever and always.